Tuesday, 18 November 2008

on being depressed

When I'm down,
I feel like a half drawn cartoon.
I'm here, and it may be fairly obvious who, or what I am
although
I'm some how incomplete
I'm here
in outline
but I'm not awfully solid
I'm empty,
lacking colour and background
there is no movement,
no life.
I am unanimated
When I am complete
I'll have resilience
and comic immortality,
drop an anvil on my head,
I'll re-inflate myself
run over me with a steam roller,
I'll peel my self from the road and carry on
but now
at this moment
I remain flat
on the page
two dimensional,
unreal,
incomplete
I need an artist who
with bold strokes
can make me whole
who will ink in
a rainbow existence
check continuity
plot my course
and script my life.

4 comments:

JesseTheCat said...

This one is so real,its like I was feeling each nuance myself.When I get down and low spirited,I too wish for someone to take guidance and plot my course.I usually withdraw a bit from life and society and blogging,just cos I have nothing to say,lol.How similar we are in some respects,my friend Toadee..oh my Gosh,I just remember,we are both Scorpio,lol...could that be why??

Toadee said...

I think you have to have been there to understand and it is good to have friends who have that understanding and who accept that we will ride the peaks and the troughs of life and who will stay around when we need to take ourselves away.
I certainly think the scorpio intensity plays a part.

King of New York Hacks said...

It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.

Vicky said...

Very good! You have given life to the feelings.

((Toadee))