Directions

do you ever encounter a place or a person and find it gets you thinking about how things might have been.

I am a big user of the what if line of thought, it's a weakness of mine.

Last week i spent a lot of time in another part of the country and I thought a lot about someone who i always associate with that area wondering how life might have been different if we had met earlier.

Such thinking is not good as it doesn't change what is but in a way I enjoy, just for a short while, 'living' that alternative life.

Seeking real

sometimes I'm not sure who (or what) I am.
I find my self wondering whether the smile I bestow is genuine or whether I'm using it to my advantage.
I can't decide whether I am a father, a husband, a lover, a friend or a recluse. I guess i am all of there things but there are times when I know I'm acting and I wonder where real has gone.